Risperdal Stole My Soul

I was given risperadol during a hospital stay because I had insomnia. It figures that I never have ever taken medication and I always research things before I take them, and this medication I didn't research,. I was healthy mentally and physically other than my insomnia. I was told it would help me sleep. LIttle did I know this is an antipshychotic medication. This medication has taken my soul away. I am only existing, I feel like an animal or an inadimant(wrong spelling) object. I dont enjoy anything. It completely took away every emotion that I have. Only memories I have are memories and feelings from the time before I took the medication. I is the worst feeling to feel like you are a stranger to yourself . I feel like I am a walking dead person. It also messed up my taste buds to where I really cant taste food. And also I physically do not feel hungry ever,,nor do I physically feel food in my stomach. My period is gone,so therefore I am never having kids and as far as I am concerned I am not a woman. Also I would give anything to feel the feeling of physical tiredness and actually take a nap. nonexistent. sex drive gone . I am no longer a human being. does anyone feel like this? is there any medication anyone know that will bring your emotions back???