Menopause: I Feel Like Someone I Loved Has Died
Posted over a year ago
I've tried to describe the feeling in my heart or at my sternum or in my stomach (it's somewhere in that vicity)....I am always carrying around this feeling inside similar to how one feels when a dear loved one has died. I had my blood drawn last week and ... more »
I've tried to describe the feeling in my heart or at my sternum or in my stomach (it's somewhere in that vicity)....I am always carrying around this feeling inside similar to how one feels when a dear loved one has died. I had my blood drawn last week and will find out tomorrow if I'm in full blown menopause, but I know this is all hormone related. Sometimes I feel very, very anxious as if I'm going to emotionally explode. this is no fun.
Canisurvive - I totally know how you feel. It's so different from how I've been my entire life. I was always happy and positive and can be that way for some of the month but as soon as I begin the hormone changes that lead to my period I become a completely different person. It's as if I have fallen into a deep hole of despair in which I cannot be pulled out from. My beautiful grandaughter will knock at my bedroom door and say, "Grandma can I come in?" I have to tell her no because I don't want her to see me like this and I know it probably hurts her feelings. Why can't I just enjoy the simple things in life like spending time with my grandaughter? Is that too much to ask for? Then I feel worse because the reality of the depression and anxiety, and panic attacks consumes me with hate for life to have this condition as a part of my life on a regular basis. Get better just to get slammed again with it. I'm so angry at God, because where is the explanation for making me out of my mind every month. Men don't go through it. Sure they go through bad moods but until you've experienced what I am talking about that happens to your mind and emotions you know it's not just a bad mood. This is going to last for years? I know I won't last with it for years. I simply won't do it. I see my doctor tomorrow and I don't care if they give me shock therapy but something has to be done. I can't ride this out in hopes of a better day years from now.
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