Fentanyl Opiate, Surgeries, Prozac, Glue, Pills

O.k.- My Life with Fentanyl. It's 1:30 a.m. where I live and I am awake. That should speak for 1 HORRIBLE side effect. I started 25mg in April 2009. up to 75mg now. Well, I AM GOING CRAZY. I even started Prozac to try and get my life back. At first, things were not so bad, but when i went to 75mg in Feb.2010, things turn for the worst. Sandoz is a stronger patch(in my opinion). Look on the label. My doctor said its the size of these things. Crap. I switched to Watson this month and less relief(its huge and still is GEL). look under each transdermal system contains. u will see 12.6 opposed to the others that say 7.6 or so.Mylan is little, but the size--Doc is wrong..My anxiety has me inside and out.BAD...Can't go out, feel like I'm dying all the time. I have type 1 diabetes , hernia disc in back, and 13 surgeries since I was 20. I'm 40. I don't know how to come out of this feeling. I know all about pills(BLAGH). They don't work. I got addicted to this thing now and no one really warned me of the side effects.Withdrawals would be Hell. i stopped all opiate pills(5 yrs of those things. god helped me do it in 27 days, I swear.He is working on me with this patch too. I know I must stop it. I might not see Christmas.whatever kind your on,they all work differently for each person, but i swear the Sandoz(from MAJOR RESEARCH) is stronger. One way or another they got us hooked. What is up with the 1st night of no sleep?? Then, 2nd day u r trying 2 catch up, then it all starts again. You cannot work or enjoy life on this thing. It robbed me of who I am. I don't think or do anything right. If you have no anxiety or depression yet-GET READY FOR THE RIDE OF YOUR LIFE..its coming.They don't work 72 hrs. get real. is the chest where your doc told u 2 put it?? you can wear it anywhere.Gel kind or these new paper/glue kind. we are all doomed.My pain doc is soo strict, I don't know what she could give me to get me off this thing. my doc hates any other BREAKTHROUGH med.Methadone would make me sick. Please answer this--DOES ANYONE HAVE EXTREME ABDOMINAL PAIN?? I do. I have no friends. My husband,1 son , mom, sister and a cat. Someone email me on this terror I'm having. I want to be ME. Life is passing me by and I know its this Patch. God help me.....Help us All