Albuterol Extreme Anger, Shortest Person, Black Sheep, Bags Under My Eyes, Personallity

I was born with Asthma, and had to be rushed to the hospital when I was young to deal with attacks. I remember being told to just lie down and relax, but my parents didn't understand, that only made it worse, I was suffocating slowly. Then I was given the OTC Peimatene Mist, now that stuff is bad! Eventually I got a prescription for Albuterol, yes it works, but having been on it most of my life, I'm wondering about what it has done to me over the years. I'm now 30, and am trying Advair & Flovent. I am the shortest person in my family, my breasts are the same size as when I was 13, (also unlike my family), I terrorized my sister growing up, fights every day and have moments of extreme anger, I'm very short tempered, and have so much angst sometimes I just hate people in general. I like rough sports and have even gone to jail for assaulting an officer. To say the least I'm the black sheep. I have been described as flying by the seat of my pants, can't ever relax, and have had sleep isues for as long as I remember, I never feel rested enough, constant bags under my eyes. The racing pulse & hyperactivity isn't so bad. I'm questioning my personality now, it does seem like I've been "roided out" a lot of my life. I still have tightness and shortness of breath every day. As for my health, I probably will at minimum suffer with heart problems in the future. My side effect has been my whole life, I don't blame Albuterol, I just wish I didn't have Asthma, a different medicine may have been worse. I wonder if a cure couldn't have been found by now if it weren't for the lucrative business of prescription meds.